I’m Finally Comfortable With Myself
“I actually noticed several days ago, while in the Life Skills Courses, that my memories had started coming back and getting a lot clearer. I remembered
a relationship that I had and was able to recall her first and last name. I had completely blocked that out in the past. I started randomly remembering lots of positive memories too!
“Prior to doing this course, I could remember concepts or ideas of my memories, but now I feel like I can actually think back on a memory, and to some degree, be able to re-experience it. This has been a major win for me, along with my decreased anxiety. I’ve also noticed that I’m more comfortable just being in my own skin. I used to get really bad anxiety about being alone or being around large groups of people. Lately, I’ve noticed that I can actually just sit by myself for a time and be comfortable and not antsy or worried.
“I’ve also realized that I have a lot more self-confidence than I used to have. I used to be extremely insecure and constantly worried about how other’s perceived me, but the best way I can describe my gained confidence is just a general feeling of being much more comfortable with myself and being able to be by myself or in groups and still feel comfortable being there. I’m not constantly worrying or causing myself undue and unnecessary anxiety.
“When I was just spending time by myself, I started revisiting memories, since it was the first time in years that I could actually go back and re-experience them, rather than just thinking back and having a blank, black image with just a concept or idea behind it, but no reality in it. It was quite enjoyable being able to relive my happy memories that drugs had dulled away. My sense of guilt and sadness over my past transgressions had disappeared and I now feel comfortable revisiting ALL of my memories.
“I’ve also noticed that my ability to confront and handle situations and people has improved greatly. I would like to continue working on this point in particular, but even with the things I’ve been able to comfortably confront, it gives me a lot of optimism for the future and it’s really incredible that I haven’t consistently felt this good in years, probably going all the way back to my early childhood.”
D.S. - Narconon Suncoast Graduate