I Finally Have the Skills I Need to Deal With Life

I finally have the tools I need to deal with life

When I was younger, I used to dream about what I wanted to be when I grew up. Like all addicts, I didn’t dream about growing up to be someone physically and mentally dependent on drugs and destroy the people around me. My family used to listen to my ever‑changing dreams of becoming a ballerina, a police officer, a marine biologist or a microbiologist. Though my ideas changed throughout the years, my family supported them. They wanted me to follow my dreams and be successful in whatever I chose.

That all came crashing down when I smoked weed for the first time. From the first hit, I knew it was going to be a problem. I felt all of my problems disappear. I could finally face life comfortably. I didn’t know that my life was going to come tumbling down soon after. For those of you who don’t think that marijuana is gateway drug, for me, it was. I found out that by getting high, it solved my problems. Everything that I couldn’t handle, I could while I was high. It also became a mental and emotional crutch for me; something that I could fall back on when all else failed.

That one hit opened the door for harder drugs, taking away my dreams and aspirations, more and more each day. I never could get high enough. With each high came an unquenchable need for stronger drugs. As I moved from one drug to the next, nothing ever satisfied me. I couldn’t run from all the wreckage I caused; I couldn’t run from myself. I never could have imagined what my life would turn into from that first time getting high. I had no clue the pain, misery, and heartache me and my family would soon endure. My family tried and tried to help me and I constantly deceived and manipulated them, and before I knew it, I had no family, no house, no job, no friends. I was alone. All I had was my broken self and my drugs. The only aspirations I had anymore were to keep using drugs and figure out where and when I would get my next fix. Nothing seemed to matter anymore. Not my parents worrying if I would survive another night. Not all the friendships and relationships I had destroyed. My life had become a surreal illusion.

The best decision I made when I finally hit my bottom, was to come to Narconon Suncoast. They offered a program that could save me from the life I was living, that could help me with my cravings and get my mind right. I now have the motivation to do better in life and not just settle. I finally have the skills to deal with life and not feel like I have to turn to drugs to solve anything. I know how to face life, handle problems, and live life like a ‘normal’ person. I got my dignity and self-respect back but also, I have my family back. I was once a stranger to them; completely isolated and estranged. Now, I have them back. They see the positive changes I have made and I’m finally the daughter, granddaughter, and big sister that they hadn’t seen in many, many years.

L.H. – Narconon Suncoast Student


Jason Good

Jason has been working in the field of addiction and recovery for over 10 years. Having been an addict himself he brings real-word experience to the table when helping addicts and their families, while also offering a first-person perspective to the current drug crisis. Jason is passionate about educating the public about what’s currently going on in our society, and thankfully, offers practical solutions. Jason is also the co-host of The Addiction Podcast—Point of No Return. You can follow Jason on Google+, Twitter, or connect with him on LinkedIn.