The Trap of Addiction

Young Adult Girl

I grew up about 20 minutes outside of San Francisco in Marin County. I had a pretty amazing childhood. Sure, there were some ups and downs, but for the most part, I was a happy, energetic child that loved life. Somewhere along the way, things started to get rough at home and I found myself constantly trying to pick up the pieces that a dysfunctional household can leave behind. I became extremely independent and by the age of 15, I dropped out of high school and started working full-time. That’s also when I found opiates.

From the second I tried them, I felt as if I had found my life partner, the solution to all my problems. Boy, was I wrong! For the first 2-3 years, I was somewhat functional. I held down a good job catering private events and by night I was a full-blown junkie, who had become accustomed to waking up completely broke after making $500 the day before. It felt like a never-ending cycle. Eventually, I lost that job, which was the only thing holding me back from 100% committing myself to a ruthless heroin and meth addiction. So, I became committed, I felt like I had no choice and no purpose, so drugs became my purpose.

Upset Girl

I found the needle and I became such a cold-hearted, hopeless person. I hated every second of it; having to constantly lie, cheat and steal just to get through the day. I hated myself for it. The compromising situations I put myself in, just to keep getting high, became exhausting. I can’t even count how many nights I spent on the cold streets of San Francisco so I could sell drugs to support my habit or how many times I was beat up or robbed. I convinced myself that all of that was okay because, at the time, I truly thought it was.

The best part of my day was finding a bathroom stall to get high in, because most places knew I was a shameless addict and had kicked me out. I never planned on getting to the place I was at; no one ever does. A person can try a drug, like it and before they know it their lives are ripped out of their hands. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I had lost complete control. If I had the choice, I would have done drugs before I took a breath of air, because I knew that I had no way of dealing with life without them. I watched myself hurt so many people and never blinked an eye because I accepted that’s what needed to be done to get my fix.

Deep down, I knew that I was once a person who loved people, who had a bright future and was caring of her friends and family. The fact of the matter was that I learned to love heroin more than anyone or anything in my life. Knowing that made me sick to my stomach. I finally got tired of hating myself and having my family hate me. I was tired of giving everything up for something that never gave a damn about me. Sure, I had tried many other rehabs and a lot of them didn’t work for me. I didn’t want to be powerless over drugs. I already lived that first-hand.

Happy Girl

Narconon Suncoast gave me the chance to take responsibility and be in control of myself and the decisions that I make. I couldn’t be happier after completing this program. Of all the things money can buy, you can’t put a price on feeling like you truly overcame the trap of addiction.

C.M.—Narconon Suncoast Graduate


Jason Good

Jason has been working in the field of addiction and recovery for over 10 years. Having been an addict himself he brings real-word experience to the table when helping addicts and their families, while also offering a first-person perspective to the current drug crisis. Jason is passionate about educating the public about what’s currently going on in our society, and thankfully, offers practical solutions. Jason is also the co-host of The Addiction Podcast—Point of No Return. You can follow Jason on Google+, Twitter, or connect with him on LinkedIn.