I Didn't Realize How Far Gone I Was
“Before I came to Narconon Suncoast, I had a one track mind. Every day was the same thing over and over: How can I make money, where can I get the drugs, etc., etc. I was barely able to keep a job and had crashed numerous cars. I went from being a decent, friendly person to a selfish, miserable addict. I decided to come to treatment because I was tired of feeling like a scab on this earth.
“Nothing good was happening for me and I knew I needed to get clean in order to attract positive energy. I wanted to come to Narconon Suncoast because they have the sauna program and, overall, the program is much longer than average rehabs; where you’re in and out in 2 weeks.
“I’m glad that I came here and did the sauna program. I feel like it has helped my brain quiet down. I also feel more peaceful at certain points throughout the day. Before, I always had to be moving/fidgeting, or would be thinking about random things. Now I can just sit and be still and enjoy the day. I also haven’t been thinking about or craving drugs like I normally do when I first get clean. I can tell that sauna has gotten a lot of the chemicals out of my body.
“At this point, coming to Narconon Suncoast is the best decision I’ve made in a while. I’ve been to multiple rehabs and would be ready to leave and get high after the first couple of days. When I left treatment, it was a struggle to stay clean. Coming here and doing the sauna program has really helped me with that problem. I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t thought about the drugs, but my level of craving is nothing compared to how it used to be and I’m positive it’s from sweating out the residual drugs during sauna. I’m not as anxious or paranoid as I used to be and I feel like I’ve gotten a jump start to help with my physical health. The chef here is on point and makes eating healthy easy.
“If anything, having a couple of months to settle down and get my mind right has really helped. It’s hard to get accustomed to living life sober, I know, I’ve tried doing it multiple times, so being able to be clean and start doing simple things like making my bed and being accountable, with the help of the staff, has helped me become prepared for taking the next step in my life.
“I didn’t really realize how far gone I was until my family got tough with me. Sometimes I wasn’t able to come around the house, my sisters wouldn’t want to talk to me as much and I could hear the disappointment in my dad’s voice when I talked to him. I wasn’t hiding it from anyone. My family is very happy I made the choice to come in to Narconon Suncoast. My mom told me that she can finally sleep well at night because she knows I’m here and trying to better myself. It felt pretty good to hear her say, ’so, this is my son!’ I was told by someone that if I wrote down what I plan to achieve in the next five years, seal it in a letter, and reopen it after five years, that I will have surpassed it by leaps and bounds. I’m looking forward to that and believe that my time here at Narconon will help me to achieve those things.”
G.R. - Narconon Suncoast Graduate