I Used to Completely Rely on Drugs

i used to completely rely on drugs

My addiction has affected my life by destroying my health, my relationships with my family and friends, as well as destroying my body and mind. 

I was an Adderall addict for 5 years. I first tried Adderall with my friends before high school and absolutely didn’t need it, as I was near the top of my class in school. During my freshman year of college, I decided that I was going to get prescribed Adderall by some doctor I had never been to before. I walked in and easily manipulated my way through their “ADD and ADHD tests.” Ten minutes later, the doctor literally gave me  the choice of any ADD medication I wanted and whatever dosage I wanted.     

 I used to be completely reliant on the drug. I wasn’t even able to move from my bed when I didn’t have it. My relationships with my family were extremely strained. I lied, stole from them, and put them through a day-to-day hell due to my drug use. They worried about my health and my success at all times, while I couldn’t have cared less what happened to me.

I went from weighing 195 lbs pounds and being an athletic person to cutting down to 165 lbs. I wouldn’t sleep for days at a time, which would, in turn, give me psychosis. I never truly believed that I could ever get sober; I was stuck in what seemed like an endless cycle of lying and hurting myself and not achieving anything in my life. I decided to get help after I had been homeless for a couple of days. My family wanted nothing to do with me, my drug use, and my bad choices. However, I had gone through enough of a hell that I came to them and finally admitted that I had a problem; that this person I had become wasn’t the true me. I had gone from top of my class and a star athlete in high school, to a homeless person in a matter of years.

When I got to Narconon Suncoast, I began the sauna detoxification program after about 5 days of withdrawal. Sauna was huge for me. For years, I’ve been living under the illusion that I simply just feel tired all the time and that was just how my body was. After sauna, I found out this couldn’t be further from the truth! I had more energy than I knew what to do with and that was a massive win for me.

Objectives helped me to put a lot of my bad experiences in the past, that I was unknowingly carrying with me and allowing to upset me. The Objectives course brought me to present time, and I became more aware of my environment than I ever have been in my entire life. The Life Skills courses were one of the most beneficial parts of the program for me. I got the opportunity to handle multiple relationships with people in my life that I had harmed throughout the course of my drug use. The most rewarding part was handling my stepfather, who I had the most strained relationship with. I owned up to what I had done and took responsibility for ruining our relationship. He cried in happiness.

I also got a chance to confront all the bad things I had done and looked at it from a completely new perspective. Doing so has helped to set me up for success and taught me how to not repeat my actions again in the future. I’ve always wondered why suddenly, in the past, I would stop before completing things that I started and why I stopped being a productive member of society. The Life Skills courses helped me to realize why that had happened and also gave me the tools I need to work through any situation. Most of all, the courses helped me to regain my self-determinism, which I had lost years before.

In comparison to when I first arrived at the program, I’m now completely changed for the better. My family is extremely proud of me and the progress I have made. There is a noticeable difference in how I act now and how I’m treated, as a result. If you are currently an active addict, I highly encourage you to try Narconon Suncoast. This is a program that is tailored to you and instead of being evaluated by others, which many addicts have faced their whole lives, you are in control of your own evaluations and wins that you receive.

C.S. – Narconon Suncoast Graduate

AUTHOR

Jason Good

Jason has been working in the field of addiction and recovery for over 11 years. Having been an addict himself he brings real-word experience to the table when helping addicts and their families, while also offering a first-person perspective to the current drug crisis. Jason is passionate about educating the public about what’s currently going on in our society, and thankfully, offers practical solutions. Jason is also the co-host of The Addiction Podcast—Point of No Return. You can follow Jason on Google+, Twitter, or connect with him on LinkedIn.

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