“Who am I” is a question I always knew the answer to. Growing up, I was overall, a happy, energetic, bubbly, and outspoken child. I had goals set for myself at a pretty early age.
Before coming to Narconon Suncoast , I had been dealing with a drug problem that started with alcohol and marijuana. As the years went by, I began experimenting with other drugs like cocaine, meth, and prescription pills. But once I tried heroin, I fell in love.
I have had many wins and gains during my stay here at Narconon Suncoast. My first gain was getting sober. Getting rid of the lies, the anxiety, the anger, and the health problems associated with using has been a huge weight lifted off my soul.
Introvert – to direct one’s interest, mind or attention upon oneself. Being an introvert may not seem like it’s a big deal, while in reality, it is. Focusing on only yourself can cause you to become very egocentric.
It’s not the easiest thing to do , to come to a rehab facility at the age of 53, but sometimes life has a way of biting you when you least expect it. We all make choices in our lives that sometimes don’t work out the way that we want them to.
Life, in general, before coming to Narconon Suncoast was going downhill in all different ways. I was out-of-control. My addiction was destructive; it destroyed myself, my body, and my family. All I could do was think of the next time I could get high. I became a stranger to my family.
“When I was younger, I used to dream about what I wanted to be when I grew up. Like all addicts, I didn’t dream about growing up to be someone physically and mentally dependent on drugs and destroy the people around me.
One of the most important parts of the Narconon program are the Life Skills courses. These courses are able to put the pieces of an addict’s life back together and allow them to deal with the real reasons why they used drugs in the first place.
On December 1, 2016, I overdosed and died for almost twenty minutes from shooting heroin mixed with Fentanyl. I want to share this experience because I want to give thanks to God for giving me another chance to live and to help others find peace in Him…
When I came to Narconon Suncoast, I had just left the hospital that I had been at for 4 days, due to an abscess I had in my left arm from shooting up. I was beat down, depressed, anxious, and tired. I had cravings all the time and I wanted to leave.
Let me start off by saying that this program works, if and ONLY if you put the work in. No one here will give you the answers or tell you what to do, and that’s the beauty of it. You need to figure it out on your own. No program in this world will work if you don’t want it bad enough.
Narconon Suncoast Graduate: “I’ve also realized that I have a lot more self-confidence than I used to have. I used to be extremely insecure and constantly worried about how other’s perceived me, but the best way I can describe my gained confidence is just a general feeling of being much more comfortable with myself…“
Do you feel completely helpless with alcohol and/or drug addiction, feel that it’s hard to face each day without something to help you get through it, or even ruining your relationships because of these problems, or know of someone facing similar difficult times with their life?
I grew up about 20 minutes outside of San Francisco in Marin County. I had a pretty amazing childhood. Sure, there were some ups and downs, but for the most part, I was a happy, energetic child that loved life.
Family involvement in the recovery process is vital to an addict’s success. I was fortunate enough to have a cousin who was working at a Narconon center while I was struggling with a heroin addiction.
At the age of 15, I started drinking alcohol and doing drugs. More importantly, just before I started drinking or using, I let go of the moral and ethical codes that one should adhere to in order to have a happy life. As I became an adult, I found myself doing things that I knew were wrong, but I did them anyway. I then used drugs and alcohol to hide from how this unethical behavior made me feel.…
Before coming to Narconon Suncoast , I lived and died for heroin. It was who I had become. I had been using for 8 years and I truly got to the point where I just threw in the towel and accepted the fact that I was going to spend most of my life in jail or prison. Or I was going to die a junkie.
A person is never too old to change. Addiction can affect anyone of any age. Whether you’re 16 or 65, addiction can take hold. No matter what the drug, whether it be pills, cocaine or alcohol, they’re all used for the same reason; as a solution to a problem.
“Before I came to Narconon Suncoast, my life was completely out of control. When I was 13, I started drinking and smoking weed. I would run away from home every weekend and party while my mom was out searching for me, praying I was alive.“
Before I came to Narconon Suncoast , I was badly addicted to drugs and extremely suicidal. I lacked enthusiasm for anything, except for heroin and my cat. I constantly lied to my mother and refused to take responsibility for any aspect of my life.
“Your family is always going to be there for you. Your friends are just temporary.” My mother always said that to me when I was a kid. I never really believed her. For a long time, I had always thought that it was just me and everything that I wanted.
“I used to think I was worldly because I had experienced things that many people didn’t understand. That because I had been homeless, a junkie, a panhandler, that I had some invisible high horse that people needed to find a pedestal to meet me eye-to-eye on what it meant to live life.…“
Throughout the decades, creativity, music and drugs have gone hand-in-hand. Rock musicians and artists have long proclaimed the benefits of drugs, saying that they give them the inspiration they need to create their art.
“ When I was an addict, I felt like I couldn’t actually have anything. My addiction was full of loss; lost possessions, lost family and lost relationships. I was a heroin addict and the drug completely consumed my life…“
My addiction has affected my life by destroying my health, my relationships with my family and friends, as well as destroying my body and mind. I was an Adderall addict for 5 years.
One of the main components of the Narconon program is the Life Skills Courses. In these courses, students handle the negative influences in their lives, get relief from their past transgressions and learn specific tools they can use to help keep themselves sober once they leave.
When I arrived at Narconon Suncoast on July 8th, I felt angry, ashamed, trapped and a little crazy. What I was, was defiant, hostile, destructive and irrational.
“Before coming to Narconon Suncoast, I had become virtually everything I loathed in life. I was a thief, a liar, someone that did not show up for life. I not only lied to myself, I lied to everyone else around me. I stole from those I hold dearest on so many occasions that I eventually lost track.
“Before coming to Narconon Suncoast , my addiction to heroin controlled my life. Every moment, from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed, revolved around the drug. My body depended on that next fix. I woke up every morning and was immediately sick.
“My life before coming to Narconon Suncoast was pure chaos. Since the age of 14, I would take whatever substance I could get my hands on. Throughout my twenties, I took pills and eventually switched my addiction to Meth in order to get off of the pills.
“A mental state of panic was how I felt. I never would have thought that one hit off a joint when I was 13 would have led to laying on a bathroom floor, praying for something, anything to put me out of my misery.
Before coming to Narconon, I was living in Hell. I was at the tail end of a 6 year relationship with my daughter’s father; halfway through, we started using Crystal Meth as a way to mend our broken relationship (that’s what I’d told myself at the time).
All that comes to mind when I think of my life before coming to Narconon Suncoast is me, alone, sitting on my bathroom floor, crying because the very thing I had given my life to no longer took my pain away.
Before coming to Narconon Suncoast, my life completely revolved around drugs and alcohol . My addiction evolved from an after work activity to using just to get through work, to a full time job in of itself. I began taking pills to wake up and start drinking in the morning.
Before I came to Narconon Suncoast , I was homeless, sleeping on the ground in a cardboard box. The only way I could fall asleep was if I was high. My addiction started innocently enough, or so I thought. I was smoking weed and drinking occasionally.
Upon completing the Narconon Suncoast program, one of our students had a powerful message she wanted to share with all students and staff. She wrote: ’ It is what I was born for—to look, to listen, to lose myself inside this safe world—to instruct myself over and over.
I am a 28-year-old single mom who lost her way. I was at the lowest point in my life just a few months ago. I was using heroin, cocaine and crack. My life was on a downward spiral. I pawned everything I ever owned, lied, cheated and stole from my own family.
For the first three years of my son’s life, I was reckless and, although I didn't intentionally mean to cause my son harm, I did. I have been at Narconon for about 2 1/2 months now and this is where I came to realize my purpose.
An artist, an athlete, a lover and a fighter were all words that described a young man, before getting lost in a dark, alternate reality imposed upon him by his drug addiction. Methamphetamine and LSD brought this talented young man to his knees, leaving him hoping and praying for a way out.
“ I will always be thankful for the time I spent at Narconon Suncoast. To stay, was the best decision I have ever made. I will never forget the way I felt the day I arrived. I was so tired and broken. I had given up. All my plans and dreams were over.
A recent Graduate details what drove him into addiction and how the Narconon Suncoast program helped him find his true self: “Before coming to Narconon Suncoast, I was using opiates for a total of 4 years.
The Narconon Objectives Course uses unique exercises that are designed to help get a person unstuck from their past, bad life experiences and finally be able to move forward once again. Drugs have a tendency to stick people in their past, causing them to be utterly unaware of the world around them.
Before I came to Narconon I did not have a solid idea of who I was, even though I was convinced that I did.
I played sports my whole life. It was what I was good at and it was all I knew growing up. Sports were my passion and I worked so hard at it to be the best I could be. I played sports all through grade school and high school.
A big part of the Narconon program is the battery of life skills courses. Not only do these courses teach a person how to live life free of drugs and alcohol but they also help them to put the pieces of their life back together that have been destroyed by their addiction.
For 2 years, I was always on drugs. I was in an abusive relationship with a drug dealer. I was doing drugs just to cope with life, my boyfriend and to feel better about myself.
A Narconon Graduate Finds His Purpose “In High School I played football and had a lot of friends. I had dreams and ambitions to be somebody one day; to make a difference in the world. I started experimenting with prescription pills just after I graduated High School.
Before coming to Narconon Suncoast I was lost, angry, strung out on heroin, meth and was homeless. My life was hell. All day, every day I was all about myself and chasing that high, nothing and no one else mattered.
To most people, friendship is described as a combination of admiration, love, respect, loyalty and trust. When drugs, alcohol and addiction are added to that combination, most relationships rapidly deteriorate to disdain, dishonor, hate and distrust.
Before coming to Narconon Suncoast, my drug use was in complete control of my life. I decided to come to Narconon after everything else had failed. Although I wanted to be clean, I honestly didn’t feel like it was possible. I just knew this was my last chance and that I needed to give it my best.
I was in worse shape than I initially thought. I was in complete denial about how lonely and miserable I really was. Years of mental and physical abuse led me straight into a decade of drugs and alcohol, leaving me cold and empty. At 13, I started drinking and smoking marijuana with friends.
I’m excited about living life for the first time ever! A Narconon Suncoast graduate and his proud grandpa I remember being 8 years old, waking up the morning of my mother’s funeral, feeling that something was terribly wrong.
Go fight for it because you’re worth it! A fellow student congratulating a Narconon graduate upon completing the Narconon program Prior to coming to Narconon I didn’t know how to live. Crack Cocaine took complete control of my life.
“I believe in miracles now because I am truly experiencing complete happiness“ I always dreamed about the moment my family would get their daughter back. I would envision it and play the scenarios in my head but it was fleeting and quickly replaced with how or where I was going to get my next fix.
When I first started the New Life Detoxification I had no idea what to expect. I was out of my comfort zone and coming off heroin. I felt alone and thought I could never get sober.